It’s interesting, but the last five or so books I’ve gone through (not including the historic one) have focused on very similar topics:
You need to control your response to any situation.
You must keep what’s most important most important.
I just finished a very interesting book on Siddartha Gautama. It’s amazing how much Buddhism and Chassidism have in common. I love the second lesson. It’s just beautiful. I am not a Yogi so I may not fully understand it, but the idea of no self is so simple and clean. Everything is moving–always changing. It’s fantastic!
I’ve whined quite a bit about my current regime. Sleep between work is not living, even if I like what I’m doing. It’s time to break it.
I re-found something that I actually like to do and can do reasonably well (although hopefully better in time). I also learned that when working for someone else, these preferences don’t matter one bit. If I want to build these skills and do more things that I like, then it’d have to be on my own time–which I simply haven’t had any of except in sleep.. sometimes.
Last weekend, I finally kicked it with my old roommate. It was so refreshing to be able to talk freely and have someone who actively listened and understood. He asked some penetrating questions: Do you like your life now? What will you change to make things better? If you had a choice to be doing anything, what would it be? What are you doing to get there? We discussed the fears and practices and cycles behind choices.
It’s interesting, working for other people how easy it is to lose yourself–and I don’t mean lose your self. I whined my last whine last night, and decided to respond rather than react. I wrote down a plan–a specific and long term one. It already made today a lot better.
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